Open Your Eyes

all these feel strange and untrue
that i won't waste a minute without you.

As surreal as it is, the final week, no day of sem 2 is here. Following next week's SWOT VAC and exams, I would have bid my first year as a uni student farewell. I don't know why this is coming off as sounding nostalgic, there's still 2 years to go.

Perhaps deep down, I know thing's just won't be the same.

Just as I'm writing this with fingers poised slightly above the keys, I'm actually experiencing a flurry of emotions; so much so that I'm rendered somewhat speech(maybe word is more appropriate)less. It's oddly unsettling.

Maybe, in a nutshell, I had unraveled along the way; shuffling my thoughts, beliefs & emotions along with me in a tidal wave of uncertainty and bitterness. How ironic is it that I spent an entire 12 weeks educating myself about the formation of identities in children when I myself have somehow lost touch of my own. Life is funny like that I guess :)

On an unrelated note, if you can't learn to laugh at yourself (which I believe is an aspiring quality to have), sometimes the people around you can do it for you :) Ah friends.

I suppose there is no concrete solution to the insurmountable questions we I have sometimes. I think way too much -.- However, a personal remedy of mine (& you can feel free to rip this off if you wish, no charges will be held): put on a Hillsong's track, wallow & cry for awhile, dry yourself up, read the Bible, pray (or write in a prayer journal), submit to Him and have some ice cream :)

Somehow, everything feels a little brighter and better after prayer. There is peace that transcends the knowledge of mankind. And the ice cream doesn't hurt either (:

A more positive note! :)

I miss everyone :( I really do.

A gentle reminder

Dancing Queen

The broken clock is a comfort,
it helps me sleep tonight

I can now safely write with the peaceful knowledge that my last macro assignment is finally complete; signed, sealed & delivered. It is with all honesty completely beyond me how, again, I have managed to finish this relatively on time considering this one was more last minute than the rest.

Mmm truly a testament to His unwavering faithfulness :) Thank you, thank You ever so much.

So! Lots&lots has transpired over mid-term break! It started off with a bang coming back from LTC retreat & it definitely ended with a grandslamkabam :) This was probably the most eventful (read:expensive) break as well, one ceaseless fun activity after the other. Definitely zero regrets, despite the somewhat shallow(er) pocket & niggling guilt-trip conscience.

I'm tempted to withdraw into routine & dish out another "too many things has happened for me to remember" excuse, but I think I'll take the road less traveled (this time at least) & briefly recap the blissful twoweek break! Personally I believe it pays to have the more significant memories written down, if ever I choose to revisit this point of time in my life, I know it'll all be right here collecting virtual dustbunnies.

Note: very long wordy update ahead, proceed at own risk. :)

First week of break could probably be summed up as slightly uneventful, up till Friday at least. Highlight of the week was probably ticking marketing assignment off our imaginary checklist & dinner with V on Tuesday :) Heart-to-heart's & crema ice-cream is a combination you can never go wrong with.

Friday was when the real term break began! H chose to grace me with her Adelaide presence with lunch & Brunetti's after. I hadn't realize how much I missed having an old high school friend around to chat about random nonsense intermixed with ACTUAL relevant updates. (Ditto when V popped by from Brisbane) Cheers babes, we make good teams :) Maybe next round I'll fly up to Adelaide or Goldcoast!

The weekend + Monday was time well spent up(or down?) in Torquay, our very own resident choice for cell retreats. Although this was an entirely different experience altogether! The whole 3 days were saturated with laughter, very yummy food, Charles the chauffeur, lazy 1,2,3, murderer(s), pokerface, Heart attack & speed, fast&slow captains ball, mangoman, special taboo dances with special effects squeak rhythms, dora the explorer and HEAPS of memories that will last me a lifetime :)

I probably just mentioned a whole chunk of information not many will understand; still, veryvery precious moments indeed!

Tuesday was picnic & quality time with A & D :) ah i love them, super adore hanging around them as a couple. I'm like the most comfortable third-wheel ever! Once the sun disappeared, I met D & M for our long-awaited jazz bar excursion (lol). Unfortunately like many of life's ironic moments, we ended up detouring from our original destination (not by choice though) and landed in LaLaland, literally.

Despite the empty atmosphere, I reckon the combination of not-so-bad music, good drinks & more importantly a skipthedrybits girl talk made it a perfect night :) So much so that we ended up walking the streets at 1.20am. Thanks girlies for walking me back :) Still as paranoid as ever, sigh. Chronic disease.

Thursday (this is exciting!) was SURFING. After much deliberation & plans changing and heaps of help from DD, we finally made it up to Torquay to surf! It wasn't so much the actual experience of surfing though that made it fun, because I barely spent much time on the board itself, let alone attempting to stand on it -.-, but rather the company that made the whole trip, tiring as it was, so worth while :)

NB: I want the girl to ask me to marry her! (or something along the lines of that)
Girls: *flow of indignant responses* Are you serious?
NB: Nolah, I paiseh if she has to get down on her knees and beg.

Well way too much was shared in the car trips up and down. This is definitely something I won't be forgetting for a long while :) I'm already looking forward to next year's trip in summer! Should be heaps better with warmer sun.

All in all twas a very good break indeed :) thank You God, because You never disappoint.