love, the future

i will see the season through,
i will fix my eyes on You

I want to travel.

I really do. Though I wonder if I ever really will. You know, actually stop wishing and talking about all these festering dreams and desires and just DO IT. GO. GET. What's stopping me from walking out to STA travel and booking a flight?

I wonder.

I don't just want to travel though, I feel like, I want to experience more things, to explore. To have the courage (well, okay and I guess to a certain extent the stamina) to push myself out of my comfortable, predictable little bubble into a place that'll really challenge me to be braver, wiser, better.

Then again, this could all just be another one of those wistful 'I wish' & 'If only' posts. Because there's a part of me that really likes my bubble. I like being comfortable and knowing what I'll have for breakfast (okay fine, lunch) the next day or what classes I'm going to and WHERE. there's always this crippling fear that my useless no-sense of direction will leave me abandoned in the middle of nowhere one day.

Life can be so conflicting sometimes. But I'm really blessed to have options, and for that I'm grateful.