someday we'll know

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

do you know you're unlike any other, you'll always be my thunder.

if you know what it's like to feel so alone in a sea of people, to not feel a part of any group, any clique, or even a part of a crowd you are so intensely familiar with, could you please just drop a comment, a word of encouragement, anything really, so i can know im not alone in this? please&manythanks :)

to a quote the one&only great polymoly:

sometimes i think im just better off alone.

spm is a total hoot. only 4teen short days left <3




i miss you like crazy, even more than words can say :)

Thanks for the memories <3

as we go on, we remember

all the times we had together

The Graduation song was playing in my head the night i returned home from my high school graduation. the line that struck me the most was "and as our lives change, come whatever, we will still be friends forever." a promise made from one friend to another that whatever the circumstances, our friendship will not tarnish.

i believe i have found those friends :)


i can't say its been a good five years in sri aman because honestly, it hasn't. just like everybody else i've had my fair share of ups and downs in school. but i will say its been a satisfying five years because despite all the drama, ive survived; and long will the beautiful memories stay with me.


its interesting to see the varying emotions displayed on graduation night. there are some who are sad because high school life is coming to an end, and seperation from friends is the inevitable; and then there are those who are glad to finally move on and be thrown back into a coed environment(dont deny you miss it). for me, its definitely bittersweet. although i am sad that we are all going our seperate paths, im excited to begin a new phase of my life, its a chance to reinvent yourself and start afresh (corny as that sounds).


ive learned that life can throw you some pretty hard blows at times, but if you are able to pull through that, you will never be stronger. ive learned that true friends stick by you not only for the good times, but to help us weather the storms through bad times as well :)






too many graduation pictures, will post after spm (:

A Tribute

live your story, faith, hope and glory

hold to the truth in your heart.

there comes a point in everybody's life, where we are bound to experience a form of loss. it could be a miniscule almost insignificant loss of a dress, a pencil or someone's email address; it could also be a more devastating loss of a loved one, a friend or a spouse. but nonetheless, a loss is a loss; it creates in you an empty void robbed of hope that when something is lost, you can never get it back.

it is heartwrenching to write this knowing i once came so close to losing someone i love so much, and having pulled through that must now endure a loss that is beyond my reach. if you know what it's like to realize that someone or something is slipping from your grasp, and yet you are powerless to do anything, then you will understand how much it really hurts.

HEIDI KOH has been the loyal faithful loving dog that dutifully served my family for over 10 years. tomorrow she will be returning home to reunite with ANGIE in heaven where God awaits to greet her with open arms. although losing a pet is nowhere near comparable to losing a human being, dogs are just like us, only with four legs and the incapability to form sentences.

my only source of comfort now is holding tight to the promise of God that there will be no sicknesses, deformities or tears in heaven. as unbearable as it is to see her leave us, im glad that her suffering will be put to an end; i know she will leave us with a smile. and one day, i will be waiting for her to run into my arms, when we meet again.

HEIDI, you have been the most joyous blessing in this family. for all the times you've guard our house, entertained us with your heidi-ness and made us smile, i thankyou. its been a wonderful ten years, and i vow to hold on to each and every memory till the day we shall meet again. :)

smile through it all.

when it all falls apart

there are days every now and again i pretend

that im okay.

the thing is, people say they understand what you're going through.

but guess what?
you will never understand what it feels like until you've lived through it. NEVER.

it ends tonight.

dont judge, listen

keep holding on, cause you know we'll make it through

just stand strong, cause you know im here for you.

three words can change your life forever. i see rough tides ahead, but i also see hope. i imagine dark clouds and grey skies, but i also see a ray of light guiding the way. as tempting as it is to drown in despair, i choose to fight against the current to get to the surface. why?

because hope is never lost.

che i hope you're doing okay, i know its hard when it feels like you're going through the motions alone, hundreds of miles away from where you want to be. but you're not alone, you never will be. remember to always be strong okay, and take comfort in the fact that God hold's her life in His loving hands. do not be discouraged, because i believe this is but a small hurdle that is going to contribute to something even greater and better in the future.






there's no other way when it comes to the truth; so keep holding on.

someday

every long lost street, led me to where you are

others who broke my heart, they were like nothern stars.

specially for the one who calls me her muse, whatever happens, know that its not without reason. life isn't about how little mistakes you make, but what you choose to make of those mistakes instead. so lets forget about charcoal's & midgets altogether..


its time for a new beginning :) loveyoudarling.



this much i know is true, that god bless the broken road, that led me straight to you.

rockstar oolala

fast lives stuck in the undertow

you know the places you wanna go

today was more fast paced and hectic that my usual get-out-of-bed-and-lollygagging-around routine. but heck it sure was alot more fun :) i had a reallyreally nice time with joash in the morning, had a good heart-to-heart too, a girl could always use that once in awhile.


i had such a pleasant suprise from syed&nelly too which was awesome because i havent seen them in ages! that felt superb.


zomg i have never laughed so much with nique before. endorphins were all rushing to my head, i couldnt think straight, which was why i probably acted like a goof. but hey, it was fun (: we watched I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry.


to end the night of funn-er than fun day, i had a good ranting session(well, it was a little one sided but i enjoyed listening) with manjulimadi. (: vair vair good.


ill post pictures up later when..well..whenever.






meet my rockstar oolala (: