Another perfect day

no need to worry about everything i've done

live every second like it was your last one.

i find it extremely ironic how despite the fact that the major exam is over, im finding it harder to breathe and cope with everything that's going on more than ever now. i feel that im running out of time, im afraid of not having enough time with my family & friends.

im afraid that i would not be able to create enough memories to last me over the year i will be away; it scares me that i have to move out of my comfort zone and venture into the unknown without my friends to hold my hand.

i would be lying if i said the year 2007 passed in the blink of an eye, because truth to be told, it didn't. there were times that were so painstakingly long(mostly during history, i think) that you wished time would go by faster. however, personally when i reflect back on the year, fortunately all i remember are the beautiful times i spent with my family and friends. these are the moments that just escape by you so quickly you wish you could grab on to them.

but you can't.

as cliched as it is to write a reflective post on new years eve, it's what i want to do. the past year was undoubtedly filled with all kinds of struggles you could ever imagine. but what's important is that i got through it.

i've learnt that in the course of my 17-year-old life, it is possible to find true friends. people are so quick to judge others by the way they dress, or the way they speak. i've learnt that some people are just misunderstood, and if given the chance, they could be the best thing that's ever happen to you.

there were also unhappy moments and times of grief that struck my family. it was a rough time for all of us, and at times now, it still is. but i believe God would not put us through something we aren't capable of getting out of. and i believe that this experience has really brought my family alot closer :) so don't feel sorry for what happened to my family, because i think it's one of the greatest blessings in disguise.

so, after all the drivel i've typed out, i hoped you haven't left the page yet. or you'd probably have just skipped right to the bottom to where the pictures are :)

i know i've missed out on alot of pictures on the event's that has happened thus far after the exams. but im happy to say i have wonderful hardworking friends who complete the job for me :) here are just some random pictures.

i miss you already :( hurry home soon.

B.T.S.M :)

hang&belle.

only she makes em this good ;)

starbucks buddies <3

my retarded buddy. :D

i realize i still have alot to catch up on. but im not too worried about it. are you? :)

A little less sixteen candles

Happy Birthday Manjuli Madi :)

oh truly no words can express the awesome-ness of times ive had with you in these past couple of months. :) you're a true gem, and you're going to be one of the people i cannot bear to leave. i love you, and thank you for the wonderful memories you've given me.

ALL MY LOVE.

SOS

there's a song that's inside, of my soul

it's the one that i've tried to write over & over again.

well it's been awhile :) honestly despite the seemingly enormous amount of time i was away from my blog, let's call it a hiatus, there hasn't been much that's been happening.

okay i lied. there has been alot.

but to put it to words is just simply too exhausting. frankly i dont really remember half of them. (: what i do remember is falling ridiculously sick, lying in bed wishing someone would shoot me. but for those of you who were concern to call and msg, thank yous to you, it really made my day. no, really.

tomorrow ill be leaving for the glorious Bali. its time for me to judge if Bali really is all that and more. excluding the bombing of course, that really is terrible. :/ jue&nique are already in Bangkok now, i hope you both have fun :) i miss you two very much.
no, im not sucking up because i want presents.

oh and another not-so-major-but-still-quite-important thing, yes i missed prom. i spend my entire life (most of it) dreaming of the day i would get to wear a pretty dress and actually feel pretty for once in my seventeen-year-old life, and where do i end up? yeah that'd be inhaling Vicks. but you know what? everything turned out prety okay after all. :) God does know his stuff.

i think more people read my blog when i dont actually blog. weird. and kinda funny. maybe i should stop blogging :)

i'm missing you

im crying inside

& nobody knows it but me.

I had chicken rice(again) for lunch today. what about you? :)

I was suddenly plaqued with nostalgia today, & i decided to post up pictures from US. what good worryless fun days we had <3

oh our tatsu :) <3

i miss you.

zomg the greatest ride evah :)

bryan was more jakun than me. hard to believe really.

their signals got mixed up, HAHA.

i wish someone would look at me that way ;D

my love is alive, and not dead.

the Voice Within

courage see me through, heart im trusting you

to bring me home, at last.

I read alot of books that in some way, directly or subtly, depict the main character as the protagonis of the story, or in other words, the hero.

In life i guess its safe to say we rarely meet people we can truly say are heroic; people that claim our unrequited respect; people that we look up to and aspire to be like one day, someday.

I have a hero in my life that has touched so many lives in the quietest way possible. I'd never thought this person would soar to such heights, to be able to claim the respect and love of so many people.

The funny thing is, she really was there all along :)
"You're the hero i never saw because you were cloaked in humility. You were the hero i never realized because you masked your fear with a smile. You are the hero in my life because despite all that life has handed to you, you accept it with grace. I love you."


young girl, dont cry, ill be right here when your world starts to fall.

Music of the Heart

your love is like a river, peaceful & deep

your soul is like a secret that i never could keep.

When i look into your eyes i know that it's true, God must've spent, a little more time, on you :)

i guess this time it's really goodbye.

someday we'll know

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

do you know you're unlike any other, you'll always be my thunder.

if you know what it's like to feel so alone in a sea of people, to not feel a part of any group, any clique, or even a part of a crowd you are so intensely familiar with, could you please just drop a comment, a word of encouragement, anything really, so i can know im not alone in this? please&manythanks :)

to a quote the one&only great polymoly:

sometimes i think im just better off alone.

spm is a total hoot. only 4teen short days left <3




i miss you like crazy, even more than words can say :)