things seem to be frightfully out of place recently; it feels as though emotions & actions are colliding and im powerless to stop them. its creating a turbulent wave of turmoil and angst that seems to lust after the brokenhearted.
last wednesday i travelled down to johor with my parents & teacher to receive an award. it was a humbling experience to be in the presence of such talented and deserving hopefuls like myself, & to personally accept an award from Dato Seri Hishamuddin was definitely an added bonus. plus i got $$ (:
the following saturday i went with mum to attend the selangor ceremony in Wisma sometin sometin, this huge building somewhere in shah alam. That went okay too, the food was alot better, and i got more $$! double bonus. the speech however was long winded and draggy, i was literally put to sleep. who knew the Menteri Besar of Selangor was so...long windy?
its strange though, you would think for someone who has acheieved something like this would be on cloud9, if not happy. i am happy, but something is missing, & the thing is i cant figure out what it is thats lacking. all i know is, dont be deceived by what appears on the outside, because things are never what they seem.
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we are human beings. everytime we achieve a milestone, we are always looking for something BETTER, something HARDER to achieve. its only natural, its totally normal.
*yeah right* only the gifted ARE that talented at winning something like what you won (:
like me, i've given up. im too stupid.
appreciate it mei. its very precious.
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