profound revelation

somewhere between the spaces, there was a moment of random pure spontaneous fun (:

& because life would be meaningless without them. hangbelleboh <3

im too lazy to post up all the pics but anyway happy belated birthday darling sherrie <3>your frienship has been invaluable to me (:

today i was watching the discovery channel (yes pats on back, very educational), & somehow i stumbled upon a very intriguing yet slightly disturbing show that i couldnt help but blog about it.

the gist of the story is about a little girl, estimated age around 8, named Lao Yang who suffers from a chronic cancer disease. She lives in a rural area in Shanghai. Her disease is one of the very rare kinds where the tumor actually deposits on your face and sporuts henous growths all over your face. Thus because of all the growths, her face has become hideously disproportionate & even causing her left eye to lose sight.

doctors operated on her & managed to remove all of the tumours on her face, but unfortunately the cancer was treated too late & had spread throughout the rest of her body. This brave little girl was given a chance to lead a normal childhood with the exception of a disproportionate face for a duration of six months before she passed away on Jun 25th 2006 in the presence of her family and friends.

its probably not as peculiar to hear such stories nowadays as almost everyday we witness & hear miraculous stories, but somehow this paticular documentary touched me because it depicted the life of a small little 8 year old girl, who's dream was to go to school & make friends but was unable to because of this unfortunate disease. She showed courage & bravery throughout the whole process, & even while lying on the operating table she remained optimistic, despite being warned about the risks.

it kinda makes you think doesnt it? the only thing going through my mind while watching the show was how incredible grateful i was & how profoundly aware i am to be blessed with functioning limbs & organs. Honestly at the given time, i just thanked God that i am alive & healthy. Everything else all of a sudden just didnt seem to matter so much anymore.

God can really teach a person in the most unusual & suprising ways (:

maybe its hard to let go

note: These places & these faces are getting old ; so im going home.

sometimes there is no logic behind reason; actions fail to be justified by means. sometimes we all wish for just a fraction of a moment when we can just stop time. like hiro nakamura :) wouldnt that be just awesome?

of food & good company

its 11.38pm & im darnwoopdeedoo exhausted, plus all that screaming at ICC has done some mild damage to my oesophagus a.k.a throatla.

so ICC was interesting, it would be my last one before i head for the land of kangaroos & boost, and it sure was fun cheering your friends on while they performed on stage, kudos to them for doin a uber superkalifrajelisticexpealidocious job ;) it was worth it just seeing the twins in makeup and baju kurung.

but i had a kickass time at dinner with a dear friend who was willing to drag my hungry ass all the way to KL with her family to try out this splendid joint, El Celdro. i hope i got the name right, its somewhere along the lines of thatla.

id totally give the atmosphere, food and even the german owner two thumbs waaay up (: the pork was mouth watering deliciously PERFECT, even the soup was made to satisfy even the unsatisfiable ;) and holysnot the desert was just..MMM. : ) no i am not exaggerating, it is that good.

but the thing that really got my goat, or in this case pig, was the fact that I, Koh Su Mei, had the opportunity to break plates without being yelled at, because here they actually do it intentionally! i kid you not, now if that isnt a reason to visit that place, heck i dont know what is. i am giving free publisity to the place, good samaritan i am.

apparently its tradition to chop the pig up using the plates, or soften the bones as the owner said, and then later you just smash your plates into this huge bucket along with other hundreds of smashed china. i am not the strongest person, & it took me two tries but i did it with a little help from the cheering crowd. some were laughing too but i was having fun so what the heck.

disclaimer: please dont go running around your kitchen chopping pigs up with plates & then smashing em onto the ground, i will not be held responsible for any chinaware accidents : ) arigato & goodnight world.

this is the story of a girl

She stood staring out at sea; watched in slight awe and trembled at the force of the crashing waves upon the rocks below her. Her sight reverted to the sharp jagged edges that seemed to stretch further & further away from her, & instinctively her feet edged closer, as if vainly trying to close the gap between them.

images & colous flashed before her eyes.

she recognized herself; gawky & awkward, shoulders hunched in defeat as she trudged through life without really living it. slowly but surely, the once exuberant teeanger transformed herself into a reclusive private loner. Once close friends were now strangers; and once close families were now distant and unfamiliar.

Suddenly she was engulfed with a familiar sensation that left her breathless; she realized it was sadness. had she really known nothing all her life but this? was this where it would end?

Her head started to spin with memories that she had tried so hard to bury but were now resurfacing again. Her feet moved a couple of steps ahead.

Almost as quickly as the sadness came, it left; and was replaced with a different unfamiliar sensation: peace. serenity. the calm that settled over her body like a drape contrasted with the roaring waves below.

with a smile and a song in her heart, she murmered a prayer. with eyes closed and arms stretched to the sides, she stood on the top of the hill, at the highest peak; the perfect picture of Chirst on the cross. her heart sang with the joy of knowing that the pain ended here; that bad memories would be buried forever.

and then without further hesitation, almost as if she were floating, she glided her way forward and effortlessly threw herself off the edge. Just before she hit the waters, an image burned in her memory floated in front of her, clear as day.

the picture of a mom, a dad, & two little girls on the beach, smiling, happy.

if everyone cared

note: just so you know, this feeling's taking control of me, & i cant help it.

***Some anti-emo stuff to brighten the day : )

& she said "i love you meimeimeimeimei! (: im so proud of you! REMEMBER, im always here for you okay? and you can always send me emails! muacksmuacksmuacks. you are MINE MINE MINE MINE ( from the seagulls in finding nemo) HURHUR! (: "

& he said "ok, so, since things are cleared up, i hope you won't have anything from yourpast blocking you from moving forward..its time to fly, mei...its time. Gal 5:6"

& she said "Somehow i feel lonely when you cakap youre lonely :( Sayang, yknow im always here for you kan :( 24/7 bebeh! :D Oh yknow what, since our plan nak keluar macam tak jadi2 right -.- lets just have our dates at school : :P :D Hihi. Sounds quite weird, but heck :p I mean, i can teman you to the library, hang in canteen, few days a week, everyday, name it! Come on, i know you cant resist my offer ;D Tihiii. Id lovee to teman you. I miss you :( Then maybe we could create another song, oh we so just have tooo :D Hihihihih. "

& he said "i was wondering if u wanted to go on a cruise sometime like our two families. somewhere in the bahamas or the caribbean. somewhere hott :) tell me what u think yeah? talk to you soon! "


<3

future

note: none

& finally i understand what it feels like to be ridiculed, ignored, mocked and lonely. all i wish is for things to ease up, but it only gets harder.


this is probably called LIFE.

blessed

note: i can only imagine, what it will be like, when i walk by your side

today was special, because i discovered that i am a princess

today was delightful, because i shed those tears of joy

today was indifferent, because the world seemed better & brighter

today was memorable, because i was told somebody had died for me

and today was unforgettable, because my father took me in his arms and told me "i love you & i will never leave you."

the thing about rewards are...you cant receive them, before experiencing excrutiating turmoil & difficulties first. hang in there.

she held my hand, & we walked miles together <3