you were meant for me

baby i dont know what love is, maybe im a fool

i just know what im feeling, and its all because of you.

theres one more day left of trials, it feels like spm has already ended, when in reality this is only the beginning of a grueling month ahead. but seriously i dont think many of us are really bothered that much about it anymore, see this is what happens when you force a bunch of form five'ers through an entire month of trials. we get bored. :)

i find watching Oprah extremely and thrice inspiring. i had this crazy notion to write a book entitled "Why I Think Everyone Should Watch Oprah". i still could. hm.

but the gist of it is, i was watching Oprah this afternoon, and she was talking about this little 6 year old african boy called Mark, who was sold by his parents to fishermen to become a child slave. Statistics show that every one in four children in Ghana are sold as slaves when they are only about 4-7 years old :(

camera's travel over 7000 miles to capture the lives of these child slaves. they're bodies are so overdevoloped for their young age, and they are beaten on a constant basis. they're "masters" only allow them food once a day. at 4.30am they rise from their beds on the floor and head out into the pitch black and row themselves out into the freezing cold lake.

these child slaves are putting their lives at stake when they dive under freezing temperatures, and there is the fear that they will be caught in the fishing nets. can you just imagine? a little four old boy clad only in a small t-shirt diving under the lake waters; even when they're sick they have to work.

these are the lives lived by children all throughout Ghana and South Africa. my heart was close to literally shattering as I was so touched by these children; i was driven to tears watching such inhumane actions being carried out on a child.

it was that moment i was reminded of Nurin Jazlin who was brutally raped and murdered in the most cruelest unimaginable way possible. bear in mind she was also just a child. what has happened to the world? everybody has gone barking mad. how could anyone possibly even contemplate hurting a child.




if theres one thing ive learned from all this, is that one person can truly make a difference. you really can. dont be afraid to reach out and help someone, because every life you touch is so precious. dont be hesitant to go the extra mile, go out on a limb for a random act of kindness. everyday we are given chance to create a miracle.






im that star up in the sky, im that mountain peak up high.

party like a rockstar

its our turn and im loving where we're at

because this moment's really all we had.

sigh, im tired.

its like i knew you before we met <3

your guardian angel

gotta pick myself up, where do i start

tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart?

its been a rough week; it still isnt over. dont know who my real friends are, anymore. i put my faith in you, what a stupid thing to do. ill face the unknown, thinking about all the ways that ive grown. i daydreamed about icing on cupcakes today <3

its interesting how God uses people around you to touch you when you need it the most; once again it just goes to show He understands. today i received a little pick-me-up tissue note from a friend, it was such a small gesture, yet the impact went beyond words. at night i received an sms from another friend with four very simple words "i LOVE you mei". four words, four syllables, a mountain of emotions. shortly after that i got a phone call from david mo :) that was indeed the cherry on top of the cake, or hoever that saying goes.

i guess where you begin, isnt necessarily where you will end up. after all, no matter where you're going, it starts from where you are; theres more to life if you listen to your heart.

dont give me a guilt trip, cause im so over it. why am i still craving for cupcakes?!

smack that'

i never saw it coming, i should've started running a long long time ago

and i never thought id doubt you, im better off without you

more than you know.

i have no idea why, but lately ive been having these intense cravings for cupcakes! :) i dreamt back to when nique brought me one of hers, which tasted so delish. <3>

and also when putut suprised me in school with one of her cupcakes, zomg. thats the stuff.

and then i went to sher's blog and found out theres a whole website dedicated for cupcakes! i was salivating on my laptop okay. i defy anyone not to looking at all the yummy gorgeous cupcakes.

i wish someone would suprise me with a box of these! :) pretty please?

its five minutes to midnight, we see our names in city lights.

over you

you packed your bags and walked away

there was nothing i could say

why is everyone trying to persuade me to get facebook all of a sudden? i mean honestly people, its crunch time now, one musnt be online doing such things. oh, wait a minute, dangit. ah well at least i havent succumbed to the nations-facebook-craze. for crying out loud, even the speaker in my church today mentioned his son has facebook. is this a sign of some sort?


i really enjoyed church today, talking to ben is hilarious :) maybe i will go for that barbecue after all.


for anyone who is feeling mildly depressed i strongly suggest reading further confession's of Georgia Nicholson. its belly-aching laughter i must warn you. very healthy.



the day i thought id never get through, i got over you. : )

jaded

ive got a sickness, you've got the cure

ive got a plan, we walk out the door

im still wondering why i always get strange urges to blog during all the wrong times. seriously. its absolutely baffling, i should look this up on the internet, maybe its a disease. just maybe; chronic-unable-to-stop-blogging-at-odd-hours syndrome.

ive lost my momentum to study after two long short weeks. then again, i never really had any momentum. ohgod im making up imaginary physics stuff now.

on the bright side, i am an extremely happy camper(ish). ive got two new books, one of which is the very anticipated eclipse, which cost a bomb, but i couldnt help it la okay, it was mocking me. it was, just sitting there looking all aloof whispering "buy me". and for good measure i threw in a confessions of Georgia Nicholson book for laughs during this stressful hour.

and added bonus was i splurged some more on cupcakes! yummy small cupcakes from ms. reads <3.>

unfortunately i did not get any studying done. boo.

but never mind, alls good in the world when you have cupcakes in your belly : )


you were worth a hundred thousand miles, but you couldnt stay awhile. :)

Heroheroine <3

ive got to move on and be who i am

i just dont belong here, i hope you understand.

we might find a place in this world someday, but at least for now, i gotta go my own way.

you are the music in me

im the first to fall, the last to know

and where'd you go?

honestly trials are just physically exhausting, it really is. i dont know how people manage to stay sane AND come out with 10 A1's. is there a "studying for SPM" book for dummies that i dont know about?

anyway that isnt the point of my post today. id like to dedicate this to two very special people who have impacted my life in so many ways : ) lena banana im so sorry yours is so overdued, im blaming it on exams :D

Jason Kang

first of all, im sorry i had to steal this off somewhere, haha :) 9/11 you left for London, freaky day to go but then again all this shows that it is not coincidental, & i truly believe this is all part of God's divine plan for you. you've touched so many lives back home, and you're going to reach out to alot of stubborn ol' Britains as well. i wish you all the best, and i look forward to seeing you come home with a British accent. <3

Elena Banana Teh Su Yin

im ticked off that you have to be borned so friggin smart and kick all our asses in chemistry and if thats not enough, fly off to manchester, or was it liverpool? and leave us all behind. oh well thats the cycle of life. i hope you're having fun oogling all the hot Brits, and dont listen to nique, she doesnt need a white guy, she can easily find one. im a whole different story all together :) sharing is caring babe.

anyway i too wish you all the best in everything you do, and dont forget our promise to meet halfway okay? (: i love you, and im missing your banana-ness already <3

i just realized that at the off chance i do visit UK, i can visit two people at once :) sweet. okay its back to whatever it is im suppose to be reading.

may angels lead you in

Happy Birthday Lim Dominique Jo : )

what a heck of a year its been huh? the memory of three of us sitting at our spot beneath the stars on the beach is still fresh in my mind. you know you mean the world, the milkyway and the galaxy beyond to me too. : ) i believe God placed you in my life for a reason;

it was just meant to be <3

paper bag & plastic hearts

so give me something to believe in

cause i dont believe in you anymore
i wonder if it even makes a difference to try
so this is goodbye

since bob told me all my recent posts have been emo-ish and so unlike me, i thought id try a different approach : ) i was about thiss close to doin another emo post, but for bob's sake, im going to do a happy one (:

this so isnt the right time to be blogging though, however i can resist everything except temptation. i need to remove the laptop from the room im telling you.

bliss : ) <33

friends through & through

when it was all smiles & laughter : )

retardism

its so easy to pile sympathy upon ourselves sometimes when life gets us down; its tempting to just drown in self pity and draw away from the world. because sometimes its just alot easier to feel emptyness rather than deal with the pain.

but hey guess what? we're still here. everyday we're still given a chance to live. dont take that for granted. life is so precious, i cant count the number of deaths it takes to constantly remind me of this.

if we hold on together, i know our dreams will never die.

me, you & my medication

i didnt mean for it to go as far as it did

and i didnt mean to get so close, & share what we did
and i didnt mean to fall in love, but i did

and you didnt mean to love me back, but i know you did.

so ive survived through the first day of trials, barely. i daren't say anything about the paper for fear of jinxing it, but im glad its over. the only way im going to stay alive is to take it one day at a time.

its been a rollercoaster of months, filled with ups and downs; but mostly downs. behind every smile lurks a tear; and behind every laugh hides an insecurity. and behind every broken heart, lies a sliver of hope.

if my legs were fast enough, id run them for miles. id run till the road meets the sky; i wont give up the fight. id find a place to call my own, hidden beneath the shadows. id lie awake and gaze at the stars; and id cherish the journey ive travelled thus far.

wont hear a word they say, they dont know us anyway.