& then i made the mistake of blinking; you made me smile

I remember when we were still kids, the world didn't bother us; & we free to just be.



because all of a sudden i blinked & you grew up. happy birthday cindy loong : ) ill always cherish the times we had <3

In a flicker of a moment, everything changed

life's too short to be holding grudges; and then another angel floated to heaven.

12.27 am; i received the devastating news that the little 10 year old girl had passed away. It took a moment for it to sink it, but when it eventually did my heart broke, but more than ever it went out to her family. To lose someone at such a young age, i can't even begin to imagine what its like. Her life hadn't even begun, it just doesnt seem fair.

It's strange how something can change the entire way you think & feel within a fraction of a moment. Before this i honestly felt bitter and upset(pms), but when i received the news it just all didnt seem to matter anymore.

None of the silly bitchfights girls seem to constantly have matters anymore; none of the backstabbing & lies matter anymore. It just seems so petty & insignificant; is this really the way we want to live our lives? i dont.

I never knew the little girl, and i know i never will. But even strangers can have an impact on you. What is it going to take for us to realize that life is too short to be wasting time refusing to forgive one another & going behind each others back? In sadness there can also be beauty. im sorry that it took the life of a little girl to make me realize that i have been taking everything and everyone for granted; you may not realize this, but you've changed everything. and for that i thank you.

family's the reason im still here

sometimes your actions speak so loud i cant hear what you're saying.

this is a special post to a very special someone. while you're out watching Harry Potter, im dragging my ass outta bed to wrack my brain to let you know, that you really do mean that much & more to me. you're worth more than the most delicious sushi in the world; you mean more than the most gorgeous designer-worthy dress; you love more than anyone i know; & though i may be growing up, and things will change, this between us never will.

im sorry if ive disappointed you, & i know i have. but you have to know that im not the best person at expressing my feelings, emotions & thoughts. but i hope that by taking this step, & posting this on my blog on the worldwideweb, youd see that im willing to make the effort for you.

little miss sunshine

11/07/2007: marked the day Harry Potter & the Order of The Phoenix was released. Possibly one of the most anticipated movies of the year. and yes im glad i do not read the book : ) because then i wouldnt have enjoyed the movie as much as i did.

i had to say, that i thoroughly enjoyed myself. i truly did. it was exactly what i needed. it was one of those days where you can just really let loose, & be yourself. we laughed alot, we ate alot, and more importantly, i now have a date for prom :)

thank you for making my day :)

love is friendship on fire; & then you danced with me, and my world stood still

told you id be here forever, said ill always be your friend;

because life's too short, and most of the time it sucks.

carpe diem; sieze the day, take your chance; because you'll never know when the next best thing might come along.

because life's too short to be holding grudges.

ten years from now, i see ourselves walking down a different road, with different circumstances. despite our differences, i can still see our clasped hands welded tightly together; because time will never dent our friendship <3

because life's too short, and there isnt enough time in the world

to say thank you for believing in me.

but no matter how i try, i cant hate you anymore.

As i scroll down through my messages to find somebody to talk to, ill always find you first. it seems that your the only person that really understands me & knows exactly how i feel. and for that i thank you. when it comes to listening & giving advice, nobody else comes to mind but you ;) you have always been there for me so it would only be fair that i do the same for you. dont ever hesitate to talk me if you ever have any problems k syg ;) if i could, i would give you anything so that you wont have to feel misraeble or sad sometimes. sadly i cant. therefore, my ears & my hugs is all i can offer to help you get through hard times. i hope thats enough. its been awhile since i sent you one of my 'novels' so i thought i should ;P love you and miss you syg <3

it will be more than enough. thank you.

i realize my heart still races a little faster whenever you catch my eye; i realize you can still make my knees weak; i realize my heart still aches with the memories; i realize im always silently hoping you would talk to me whenever you're online; i realize i look forward to reading your emails the most.

and i hate the fact that im realizing all these things, because it simply means ill always have a thing for you.

7/07/2007