once upon an october

once in a lifetime, means theres no second chance

so i believe that you and me, should grab it while we can

5 Secrets, 5 Truths
5 Things- List 5 things that you want to say to people, but never will.
- Don't say who they are.
- Never discuss it again.

• i know you mean well, but honestly sometimes it feels like you dont give a rats squiggly ass about me; and it hurts. ive learned to put the past behind, but forgiving doesnt mean i forget. everything you've said, & everything you've done, well, i hope you realize someday, sooner if not later, that it leaves an impact. and i hope that you're able to look away from the mirror long enough to see the damage you've left behind.
  


• its hard to say this because we've been through so much together. but im tired of holding it in because its starting to leave a dent in my heart. i now know that all your words are just empty, meaningless. if it wasnt because we were close, i honestly doubt i would care this much. but i still do, care bout you. i just wish that you did too.
  


• you've changed. i dont know what it is exactly, but you weren't the person i knew before. im seeing different sides of you im not quite sure i like. it irritates me because we no longer are able to carry out conversations like we use to, or have heart to hearts like we use to. i dont know what happened, but something did; and im just sad it had to happen to our friendship. you may not realize it yet, but you will.
  


• well i guess its come down to this, because im too much of a coward to tell it to your face, i have to write it here. you made me all these promises; promises that gave me hope that you would somehow find a way to right the wrongs that you've done, promises that lead me to believe you were actually telling the truth, and evidently promises that were nothing more than figments of lies. well congratulations, i dont think i can ever trust you anymore. say what you want, but you and i both know the truth: you never appreciated anything ive done for you. ever.
  


• i love you. i always did and i always will.
  

i dont think blogging emo posts once in awhile are wrong. blogs are like windows that gives us a glimpse into each of our lives; our souls and our hidden desires. and similiarly when we look out every window, not every picture that greets us is pleasant to the eye.

i guess what im trying to say is, people arent perfect. nobody is. so dont go looking for perfection, because flaws can be beautiful too.

throw it away, forget yesterday.